Holiday Update

Its been quite some time since I have posted anything.  So much has happened and life has been a bit full on since November. Christmas in itself is always busy but this crazy baker undertook making 1500 cake pops in December.  I had no idea if this was achievable but I was hoping like mad that I wasn't crazy.  When I found out at the end of November that 1000 of the cake pops were needed in one week and not spread over three weeks I initially panicked.  How was I going to manage?!? After a moment however I had a sense of peace and knew that there was a reason for this and that I would get it all done.

I don't talk about my faith much here but this was so significant to me.  I felt Gods gentle voice of reassurance and knew he had it sorted.  He had my back.  I took a deep breath, got my wits about me and went to work.  Within less than one week (with the help of my mother in law, friends and my amazing husband) I managed to make 1000 cake pops, two cakes and spent several hospital visits with my precious Grandma.   At the end of that week on a Sunday night my dear Grandma went to be with her maker.  Had I had to make cake pops in those weeks following I would have been a wreck.   There were other little things that fell into place as well that I won't go into but I am still emotional over the fact that God showed such great love for me by sorting out the little things for ME?

Its so hard not to focus on the bad things that happen and wonder WHY God?? How could you allow this to happen?? Why did you take my Grandma before we were ready for her to leave, why have 26 young children been shot at a school or why did parents of 10 children and a young vibrant 19 year old lose their lives while serving you?? But bad things do happen and unfortunately no one is exempt. Good can come out of the bad and God can use it and I am so thankful for that but what I am also learning is that God is still showing up and walking amongst the wreckage.  He may not be able to erase the horrible things that happen but he cares about each and every one of us and he is taking care of the little things, loving us in the little ways that we don't and may not ever see or understand.  

This is a heavy post I know but right now my heart is heavy and that's why I haven't written much lately. I am still sad about my Grandma and have found it difficult facing the idea of making any more cakes since Christmas.  I know that in time it will get easier.  Eventually my heart wont break every time I hear the word Joy or see a photo of her beautiful face and one day I know I will see her again.   I have hope in a Jesus who loves me and is taking care of the little things that are more significant than I will ever realize.